today I run into my old purse, looking for something irrelevant. and seriously, who can have a purse like that ? of course I wanted to throw it to the trash and wondered why I'd never done it before. maybe it had a sentimental value once. I looked inside and with a three hundred euro atm receipt there was a list of things I had had to do before moving to france. it still reminded about my car, a ferry, my phone charger, library and other insignificant stuff one has to do when leaving. I read it and got kind of emotional. I hate when I get emotional like that for no reason. now the paper is sitting on my desk and I don't know what to do with it. from my perspective, it feels like an archeological discovery. from any other, I guess it's just a piece of paper. however, it reminds me, not of the insurance and the map, as it was supposed to, but of that drive down to france. back then, it seemed like a long drive and I guess it was. better be prepared. so far, none of the things listed had been crossed off.

it has been raining for weeks. it doesn't seem to stop ever. I have been working on my photos and haven't gone out much. but when I went out to the garden, it was perfectly wet and green. I have never seen it like that before. now, it's night and I am almost asleep. I can hear the rain hit the roof again. it does that almost every night and every morning. then it falls down and rushes into the river and ends up in the mediterranean sea, somewhere far. maybe someone one day will surf on it. maybe it'll run into a whale. maybe it'll go further, all the way to the ocean. then, it'll be fun.

 

couple days ago I flew away from haines. it had been lots of waiting for not much. we had stayed for a week after most people left hoping for the perfect day. it never came. one day, we got ready, waited the whole day, almost believing in it first, then giving up, finally almost panicking before realizing it was over. then it really was. ///////////////////// I stepped into the plane on the third. as it tarted rolling on the runaway, I got a little pinch somewhere understanding I was leaving. I didn't want to think about it, so I didn't. but I without putting more thought into it than that, I feel have to go back there one day and do it better.

 

yes, it's finally happening. it started raining this afternoon and now it just keeps going. it seems like it's not raining too far away. julien left today, though, so did fabien, yesterday. sven stayed, but he doesn't have a filmer anymore and I will be staying with another crew from now on. alaska is complicated like that, it seems. /////// I am glad and sad at the same time. ///////////////// it feels like spring since at least a week now. there's big mosquitos outside and all they want is your blood. ////// we haven't done much lately, the snow got wind packed, hard and dangerous and the time passed way too fast. before we even got to do anything major, it was over. now I'm here, but I feel like something's still missing, since our crew just fell apart, because the filmer had to head home. such a long wait for such an end. ////////////////////// I haven't been able to post any photos either. by the time I open them with this old and so faithful computer I have under my fingers right now, and by the time I load the on this page, it's the next day already and I would have to change the date. so, I don't do it and I know that is a bad excuse. but it's for my head's well-being, no less. /////// I hope it'll snow a lot.

well, it was yesterday, but the internet connexion wouldn't work. today is a nicer day, but still no action.

so, there's plenty of time to play funny games.